my dear >>>

موضوع: my dear >>> السبت مايو 16, 2009 5:13 pm

My dear friend

Why don’t we sit together?

You tell me what’s wrong with me

And how can I be PERFECT

And tell me how to fix it

Let me tell you why I sometimes act so fool

Let me hint why I don’t seem alright

And you judge me

Why don’t you try to replace me?

And live at least a day?

Of the pain I am in

Then maybe you will get me

And understand why I

Do things like that

Well have you ever gotten in a place??

Where you talk and talk

BUT, no one believes what you say

They take it as a joke

Saying you have no mind to think

Spreading all these rumors

The moment you speak,

They pain you more than the truth

They will wear a mask in front of you

And take it off, with these of their kind

How would you feel Being LIED at??

When you think you made a friend

A TRUTHFUL one

And when you turned around once

With your eyes closed

When you open them you see something

A harsh truth, a BETRAY

You realize it was all to know more

About you and to announce it to everyone

Isn’t painful to see everyone like that?

Well life is all about “give me with no return”

That is fine for now

It isn’t anything yet

What if you had friends??

That all they do is speaking of themselves

Saying they are just too good

Sometimes they would make fun of you

Of how you look and how you are shaped

Of other things they compare you

And BEHIND your back!!

It is way worst than anything

They would laugh at you and speak about you

Sometimes you would pretend not to hear them

But inside you is a FIRE

Burning your heart

If only you stand with anger and say everything

But you would wish you haven’t when you are done

What if you had friends??

That think they are all good

And they are so pretty for you

What the hell is wrong with them?

I am me and I won’t change for you

What if you had friends??

That would hold the words you say forever

Not in a good way but in a worst way

And they might even say it

In front of those that you don’t want them to hear it

What if you had friends??

Those don’t trust you at all

And always keep saying the secrets away from you

What if you had a friend??

Who thinks it’s you cheating on her

And believe in what ever she hears

And actually doesn’t ask if it’s true or not

What if you had friends??

That ate the meat inside you

Asking you to do things, with not even thank you

And the moment you say NO, they turn away

And say THANX A LOT

What if you had a friend??

That all she talks about are boys

Doesn’t know the world isn’t only about guys

What if you had a friend??

That says everyone dreams of her

But you realize she might had made it up

What if that friend over limited the line

And kept saying the same, without proofs

What if you had a friend?

That lied at you

Just because she thinks you are in love

And wants you away

And the lie she made wasn’t small

It was declaring of LOVE BACK

Even though you have realized

No such thing can ever happen

What if you had friends??

That would ask you about how they look like

And when you say “nice”

They like it

But the moment you tell them the truth

Thy get mad at you

Well if you want a mirror here you go

Because I got sick of lying at you

Look at yourself and judge yourself

This is not all that I face

There are hundred more

But my pen can write no more

And will write no more

What I have said is enough

To describe my feelings and pain

Who’s the fool that says

“Heaven is not heaven without any people”

I bet life is way better

And peace will always exist

Why are humans like that?

Is it in our blood?

Were we and will too be the same

HELL forever is way better

Better than a day with those people

I want the OLD DAYS to come back

When I was still a kid

With my old buddies I was

A huge band we were

The racism leader was I

Even though the band was colored

From different areas we were

Oman, Sudan, Iran, Zanzibar, and even Afghanistan

Our dreams were limited

And out hope was supported

Everyday we would be smiling

Playing together and talking

Of the school back yard we drew a line

Spreading us from the rest of the students

Drawing a huge square, for only us

And no one else was allowed in

And when someone attacks, we defend back

Then find a chance to attack them back Razz

I miss the days when no one cared

About how you look and sound

I miss the TRUE FRIENDS

And now I only found few

Trusting only couple

And the others have forgotten

Forgotten the PAST

When I was the one who lifted the pain

There is no way time will go back

And I enjoy my days once more

I wish if it ever did

With Mariam crying